Trying to change more than my hair color

Last Friday I changed my hair color to Chocolate brown! Most people like it and so do I, so I think I'll stick with it for a little while :)

More than just my hair color, I've been trying to change a few things lately. We get so caught up in our daily selfish lives that we forget who we are supposed to be for Christ. The last few months I've been thinking alot about who I need to be and what I need to do and searching for the answer of the meaning of a life full of purpose.

I took a walk in the beautiful spring weather yesterday and just talked to God. I know if I want true happiness I need to be in His will. Whatever He needs from me, I need to obey. He may not be able to show me the whole picture right now, but I'm just praying that He will daily guide me in His will.

Today I was thinking alot about humbleness and being slow to anger. I may look like a cute little blonde (not any more!) but surprising to some, sometimes I let my anger get the best of me, and I've been praying for God to help me.

Saturday night I watched "Gone with the wind" with my mother in law and sister in laws. I don't remember names, but the main character was such a selfish person, and the lady who married the man she loved, was such a kind considerate person, exactly what I want to be. I know I want to be that kind of person who loves all, but sometimes the thing that holds me back is the fear of being walked all over and taken for granted. But I guess it really doesn't matter if they do, because I should be doing it for God, not them. I can't remember where right now, but somewhere in the Bible it tells us to do good, but not let our left hand see what the right is doing. If we do good things just get a reward or thanked for it, that is our only reward. But if we do it in secret without recognition, how much greater will our reward be in Heaven!

God, help me to become the person you want me to be.